Hello! Today will be untipical for this channel post:
Today, four years ago my mother have died. She was 40. Died from oncology, less, than two weeks.
It was enormous shock for me and for my loved ones and others. We all thought and believed, that she will cyred after first chemotherapy, mother was confident, walked and felt good, but... something happened and she was dyeing before our eyes...
From that, I twice began to live again, twice restored my psyche to work and live, but still, I cann't forgive myself, for that, what maybe didn't do enough, for that, what couldn't press on mother to lie at hospital earlier, for that, what I even couldn't change...
Sometimes, I miss her very much, miss for her advice and wisdom, for warm moments. She didn't saw, what man I became, how I try to live every day and be strong for myself and my family. Maybe, I was a bad son and couldn't or didn't want to give, what could be helpfull. Now, it is all useless...
From that, I lost any faith, just stayed only deep sorrow and hope, that in other Place, not here, she found peace, which didn't get in life.
So, if, you believe, please pray for her and wish her eternal peace! And try not to make the same mistake I did, take care of your loved people, and take care of yourself. If nowone can help you, only you can and only you can take care on who needs this.
I am sorry, if ruined mood, I know, maybe this is not right place for such things, but I did.