Ah, yes I just dropped a whole article saying I wasn't SURE about my future in AI.
I'm giving y'all a heads up that i'm officially DUNNO WHEN but i'm officially going to finish retiring this year.
I LITERALLY am exhausted, I cannot afford to keep renting GPU's, i can't keep up with my claude sub.
It's not financially viable even IF i had donations at this stage, because most of y'all aren't spending on Civitai, and aren't really interested in membership or merch programs anyways. It's been that way since the start almost.
What I CAN promise is: Despite the fact i'm likely GOING to delete this profile and plausibly earth's one (they're using my old email with it so i'll ask) -- AND my Arc profile..
I have NOT deleted anything that's unreleased or previously released that's backed up.
It's STILL CRYPTIC AS SHIT from the last RSD fit I had, but this time I got smart..
The Trainer's gonna have a bug over the weekend here where the models won't auto provision, i'm going to manually see if i can fix that.
"DUSK WHY YOU GOT A CRASH OUT AGAIN YOU MOFO" - Everyone right about now.
Why? because I'm now at the apathetic stage LOL, i'm beyond crying, screaming and everything.
Because this time: I understand that it's not Civitai's fault, It is in some way my own for nto having the time, money NOR STAMINA to continue, but also the current political climate.
I do NOT work well under certain kinds of pressure, and right now with most of social media sounding like a bad linked in record?
Considering my values, morals etc have been loud, chaotic and left? -- Yea, I've had to really step back and re understand stuff.
So here's the deal:
When i'm ready to do the "OMG DELETE" i'll set The trainer onto "PUBLIC ARCHIVE" unless someone specific wants to take over the organization it's going to be shuffled to at that stage..
I'm going to KEEP Dataset Tools as a "PRIZE" because it's not just for AI, it's a long standing EXIF data project, and I really don't want to lose my stupid toy.
The Trainer is just -- It's because it's mostly just a wrapper and a lot of the security issues are things I don't understand, i'm in over my head and I can't really "BACK OUT" without just packing up and walking away.
Beleive me when I say this: I am NOT FAULTING Civitai.
The reason for eventual deletion: Some nerd doesn't wanna lose the name for this, and that nerd is one of the three in this relationship. So in effort to CURB The ai "STAIN" on the branding they wanted, I have to go this route.
That means the KNX discord's gonna shut down, because right now it's dead, botted and full of just me myself and i and one other person LOL. (*There's like 200+ people but it's mostly just porn bots and full stakc dev bots that talk)
I am a gamer, nerd and content creator and designer and artist first.
If you REALLY want to stalk me outside of AI, just look around lol..
I'm not going to post my socials on here because i don't want a lot of AI chasing me on social media.
I"m so done/dead tired that i even unblocked Furkan from my KNX repo.
Yes, i'm aware he'll likely take it and monetize it and at this stage?
I DONT REALLY care.
I am a frontend/web design type person and this stuff just... With the fact there's all of these claw bots, and now there's this AI developed plugin for FFXIV that tracks people and they're making a huntboard for it? -- I can't be certain that my shit's going to be used for good or bad-- and that's the other layer for it.
I'm no longer willing to risk a userbase just to reinvent a wheel that i know nothing about.
<3
I will stabilize a few things with the trainer in the coming month or so but I highly doubt i'm going to be able to bring myself to use the trainer, and train anything else before August hits.
I am .. that exhasuted.
And i'm not blaming anyone in particular, but it doesn't help that the only paid commissions i've got were NSFW when I statedi n my rules "NO NSFW" and knowing that i'm overseas and nto stateside: I cant' easily due to fees and conversion PAY people back when it's in my paypal - my bills zap whatever gets put in there.
So if you've paid me again for a commission: I dont even know why you're asking for the same thing thrice, especially when ti's an XXX comission. Please please, i know you all think i'm "AI TALENTED" but it's a dopamine slot machine.
If you like it for you, you do you boo xD
I appreciate the care and support people have given, and i don't expect anyone to read this nor go towards my discord and go "OMFG DONT LEAVE ME"
Because you've done this before with me.
And this time i'm not really sorry XD
I can't create a safe space in a space that's not safe to begin with (And that agian is not Civitai's fault.)
Thanks for everything <3
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