I only skipped a week, but it feels like way too long, and this one is a little late even if it is still Friday. I've been struggling to balance IRL with everything I want to do here, time for friends, time for family, and time just for myself. Lately everything has been going so amazing, but it's a hard pace to keep- especially a Master Generator's ranking. I could only hold onto the top ten for one day despite trying, though I have the screenshots and will always cherish the memory.
This song is another return to the feeling described in White Moonlight Through Black Branches, the incompatible dual instincts to grab hold and also run away which in the end form the core of my heart. As much as I loved being in the top 10 on Master Generators, I also enjoyed letting it all go and posting nothing to just take time and make my two new stickers for the fun of doing it, as well as finishing the tutorial article I finally did for people who'd like to try and think it looks hard. I don't have the time or energy for everything, so sometimes I need to just go with my heart even if it's not the direction I should be headed. I'll be back again, with more than ever, but right now the time to pull back and run away is gripping me more strongly, so I'm not as active as I was. It's how I've always been... I run away, then I start again.
Managing to stay in the top 15 so long is just mind-blowing, and I recently hit 1.6k followers! My silly cosmetics sold quite well (almost enough to pay back making the badges, LOL!) and my 1-year anniversary is coming up soon now. I have so much to be grateful for, and believe me, I am! I'm just also a little sick and feeling very tired and like I could sleep the whole weekend without even getting out of bed and I wouldn't mind... 😅
Thanks so much to everyone for being so kind and patient, and always inspiring me with everything you create. There's so much I can't even keep up with it all, and I never need to look far for beauty, wonder, or joy here. If I take a few days off, in the end it wouldn't change anything, with so much else worth seeing, but offering something of my own and being part of the creative community drives me with a real passion! I'm so amazed by everything the last year has done for me... so many friends, and all I've learned. I even won third in a real official contest!
As nervous as I am for what the anniversary will really feel like, I'm also excited. It's no exaggeration civit brought me my closest friends I ever had and helped me grow and improve as a person so much. I feel like I've improved and become a little closer to who I want to be just as my fursonas/avatars Freija and Foxy have here as well. Celebrating everyone who helped me along the way will take way more than an article... likely weeks of small posts, but I'm already working on some of them. Just now, though, I need to feel the wind... see you all again soon 🫂💗